My Black Parade

2010-11-04T22:46:00.004+08:00

2012 is a kick ass movie and i'll say it again, although im late by one year :/.And probably if EA is gonna milk each of goddamn us.. why not commemorate the end of 2012 by releasing a sims 3 2012 ep??Kinda corny but here goes..

The Sims's 3 answer to the 2012 saga..

[b]New Bridgeport,2011[/b]

So here it was, a new life, a new location, a new home.For what it was worth, i did not feel particularly happy about the move, but for reasons best known to Mother Nature, the old Bridgeport was now literally sleeping with the fishes,owing to a giant tidal wave,drowning every life-form and building to damnation.

But i was alive.And that mattered more that anything else.

What was left of the Bridgeport community trickled into the new neighbourhood.The whole town was in disarray;whatever was left of the mayor was probably bones among the destroyed Town Hall residing in the Pacific Ocean.

I hadnt had time to worry about anyone else.I had,along with the residents had to recover and hopefully rediscover the old way of life.

As i pushed the door open, silence greeted me.Which was however perfectly natural,for the past 5 years.The bare essentials of the house like the fridge,toilet were there thankfully, but i had to make do with a sofa that doubled up as a bed.No arguments there.

Weary and close to breakdown from the long trip from the temporary shelter, i headed right for the sofa,literally jumping into it.

It must have been hours, and i never felt as refreshed in all my life.The first rays had already chased away the shadows of darkness.

Time to spruce up the house.
Where should i start first? The Living Room?,No.. The toilet?
Nahh..

After what must have been a few hours, i finally decided the living room was the best place to start, owing to the sofa bed,which also made it my bedroom.
Gingerly, i hoisted the ladder and positioned it across the wall.Whatever savings i had were depleted but thankfully the Government provided us with a small sum to start over.
There was one, then two layers applied to the wall,and at the end of the day, the house was much less looking like a empty shell, a bright yellowish hue donning the living room.
Although, the day did actually go with a hitch though.The doorbell was ringing nonstop the whole time and if it wasnt for the furniture that had been ordered, i would have checked myself into a sanitarium.

Day 2 was uneventful.([i]thank goodness[/i]).I decided on the kitchen,which was abit harder to do with the appliances already there.
After about a half an hour lugging the fridge to the empty storeroom, which would later be the bedroom if i was lucky, i started on the job,adding a mixture of white and brown to give it the modern look.
Next was the toilet.I opted for the classic black and white and boy was it a touch of class.

The shower was superb and i was slightly recharged for all the weary strain my body was telling me.
As a last touch, i added the stove to the kitchen.Now it was really rolling.
By the end of the day, the house kinda looked like this.

I allowed myself a few moments to marvel at my workmanship and without further ado, neglecting to erase that stink in the process, i jumped into my sofa bed, and knew nothing more as fatigue consumed my mind.

2010-01-05T06:30:00.003+08:00

Its going to be 3 days.. and im finally out of Insworld. Hah. Probably thier worst student with the worst scores to boot. 2 years sucessfully skipped and the most suspensions ever as well as the most number of F's in a single term. Anyway i guess i wont be seeing much of that anti-Gerardesque DM, anymore.. gotta tahan for 2 hours on the eighth. After which i can finally wear MCR 24/7. im thinking of switching my cupboard to nothing except mcr shirts.Kidding.

Just got word that i got that job. Reporting to work next monday, and best of all its near Cuzzie's place. Hah. i probably will get three letters before the end of the month

aka. OUT.

Getting my results in March.. i hope there isnt too much red or F's in it to kill my parents, and yeah my dreams. lol.

Ciao.

2009-12-24T03:11:00.002+08:00

Its X-mas tomorrow.. and the usual season's greetings and then its on to next year.

gonna be a lonely x-mas eve and xmas year again.. and i can say safely, that its gonna stay that way for a long time. Lol.

whats upbeat is that at least i can look forward to champange and vodka, and of course, yours truly canned beer. as well as bingo and blackjack this x-mas, my only true companion, of course, after only a glass of them and we part ways. just like how Heiniken and moi parted ways spectacularly this chinese new year.

Ciao.

2009-12-11T19:24:00.001+08:00

Another day, another day without life.

nothing to do.. stay at home for the past 1,110 days of my life.

i wont go out for a billion bucks..

Ciao.

2009-12-10T21:34:00.003+08:00

Its kinda a heavy responsibility once you step into the world of working, i got lots of things to do... ain't it funny for a mechanic to have no driving license? Interview was -.-. was clumsy as hell and slipped up as hell as usual.. forgot to fill up dad's age.. stammered alot. not gonna get the job anyway, probably from a point of view.

As i reflect back on my schooling career.. i think its more of a i-dont-give-a-fuck-about-school (typical) of a MCR dropout. lol.

Taken this quiz from my cuz blog and its evidence i was a bad boy. Hah.

[ x] Gotten detention.(who doesnt)
[ x] Gotten your phone taken away in class.(when teacher decides MCR is not his cup of tea)
[x ] Gotten suspended.(for a year). (most happy day, or year of my life)
[ ] Gotten caught chewing gum.
[ x] Gotten caught cheating on a test.
Total: 4

[ x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times. (Like, a hundred times maybe)
[ x] Didn’t do homework over 5 times.(Its gotta be the dinosaur age when i actually last submitted my homework (its AN-CIENT)*heavy Ghost accent&*)
[ x] Turned at least 3 projects in late(dont care bout projects, unless it counts either a boyband from Jersey or another from Ireland
[x ] Missed school cause you felt like it.(Like, 3 years already and for the record, 0% attendance.Almost couldnt take the o levels)(Someone's not gonna be happy lulz)
[ x] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class. More like teacher got me to shut the fuck up, the diplomatic way
Total : 5

[ x] Got your mom / dad etc. to get you out of school.(When i get finally released from the clutches of the anti MCR DM)
[x] Texted people during class.(who doesnt lawl)
[x] Passed notes.( Not that often, sms is the new gen lawl)
[x] Threw stuff across the room.(Slam dunk anyone?)
[x] Laughed at the teacher. (if you count the principal as one, i guess)
Total : 4

[ ] Pulled down the fire alarm.
[x ] Went on myspace , facebook , xanga , etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took pictures during school hours.(mostly of exotics that park round my school)
[x] Called someone during school hours.(namely, parents, to inform them of suspension, etc
[x] Listened to an iPod , CD , etc. during class.(i rather give a fuck to MCR then to a boring dumbass
Total : 4

[x ] Threw something at the teacher. - Cant really remember who
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission.(skipping class which im notorious for.)
[x] Broke the dress code.(Long hair. Damn the school for being anti Gerard-esque)
[x] Failed a class.(I can count 5 eggs on my report card.)
[x] Ate food during class. (When my stomach's a bitch, or conveniently, referring to point 2)
Total : 5

[x] Gotten a call from school.(When my disappearing Houdini act for the past 3 years became apparent)
[ ] Couldn’t go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[x] Didn’t take your stuff to school.(Forget homework, materials)
[ ] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[x] Stuck up your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking.(Stupid anti-Gerard-esque deserves one everytime i chance upon him)
[x] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear *doesnt everyone?*
Total : 4

[] Faked your parents signature
[x] Slept in class.(when there's no mcr)
[x] Cursed at a teacher to their face.
[x] Copied homework(copied it in invisible ink)
Total: 3

Score:87(which is beyond hope :B)

2009-12-09T02:35:00.002+08:00

Things come and go

Years flash pass by and pretty soon even before the hustle of the countdown again, we're heralding the end of 09.This year has been an exceptionally bad one.From the fiasco at Chinese new year to the end of Ordinary Wizarding Levels... i have nothing but trouble. Save for the birthday which i could not host thanks to the Wizarding levels with friends and family on the same day.. and which spawned MCR shirts from my relatives, i really love ya for that man, i need & will only wear MCR shirts out so i've been making do with my first shirt that my pop bought. lol. Maslow will probably screw me in his grave and cry bloody murder, but heck, its a goddamnned NEED not a WANT.

Meeting a ITE teacher about my future tomorrow, and yes, its time to put the Cefiro mod project into frutition, provided i pass the goddamnned O levels.

Ciao.

2009-06-19T18:35:00.002+08:00

Let pictures speak for itself

2009-06-13T04:07:00.004+08:00

230JM, S5
Saturation Play
VQ23DE in all its glory
These Bright lights have always blinded
Ciaossu!

Nothing much for the month of apr-june. Just got S-U-S-P-E-N-D-E-D well after so many days of blatant skipping. Hoo-RAY!. Nope.Not. Pfft. im stuck with one and a half month with nothing to do. Well, two weeks of suspension is better than two weeks of hooving my ass out of bed at 7am and seeing two, sorry three lumps of man boobs(left tit, right tit, one big lump of tits on his asscrack) that comprise of Master and Discipline.Oops. Master Of. Sorry for the typo. And probably giving one month of loosing weight for me, if i ever get around to it. Been super clumsy today as well. Slipping in the toilet while half blind doused in soap is not the PERFECT idea of a midnight romp. P-F-F-T. I got more than what i asked for. And to top the icing on the cake, i have a mini molehill the size of Mount Kinabalu on my forehead .Thats not all. For being up at unearthly hours, since my suspension, i can officially send Warner Bros/Universal or whatevershitmoviecompany that is, to be a stunt double for Kungfu Panda, only the movie was done eons ago

Recipe a la roasted meat sandwich w/tea w sugar? milk? no.., one bottle of facial cream.Yes. you read right.Thats my supper. With regards to the unintended ingrediant, the suspect cream, lets share the story.

so while putting back my book, i accidently set a domino game of my hairspray, deodorant, pimple remover, etc and well it so happens that my cup was right under the bottle of cream.

No need to elaborate what happened next. Ka-splash.

Anyway, just did up the cefiro nicely with a car wash.Pictures speak for itself

2009-04-12T01:35:00.002+08:00

Ciaossu!..

Finally finalised the suitable parts that can be installed.. actually its not finished yet.. havent trial error yet..

Planned Modifications
Engine-
Suggested swap to VQ35DE 3498cc V6 sourced from pre facelifted fairlady 350z.
Installation of Mitsubishi Heavy Industries TD04 Turbocharger. Set Boost at 0.8 bar,1.3 bar scramble boost for 8 seconds. Hurricane Air filter though need to oil and clean every 60km. Might leave it stock. HKS oil cooler with temperature set and hoses etc, strengthened VQ35DE Cylinders Pistons, intake manifold and exhaust manifold to cope with increased power.Custom made Radiator and coolant tank.NGK spark plugs.Installation of Turbocharger anti-lag system.
Port and Polish.

Transmission-Haldex Sequential 6-spd manual transmission/DSG with modes for auto/paddleshift or manual mode. This is still temporary as this is a AWD system transmission.. As the Cefiro is FWD i might have to do a AWD switch.. but that will complicate costs.

Exhaust-HKS Hiper Drager exhaust system, Fujitsubo exhaust 2.5" piping ,Legamax

ECU-Piggybacked Unichip or reflash.Removal of rev limiter to 7,500rpm.Might consider Standalone

Brakes- FrontBrembo/Endless 4 pots, calipers and pads Rear stock calipers , Endless pads

Tires-Goodyear Eagle F1 with Dry/wet rating.18" Enkei replica rims-8kg per rim

Fuel-Shell Formula V Power /Formula 98 as backup. Octane booster when pumping 97ron
Shell Malaysia

Etc:

Headlight conversion from stock, non-xenon to Phillips Diamond white HIDs with auto levelling featre

Conversion of Taillamps to LEDs

Future upgrade to Garett T04 single turbo
Removal of leather seats, replaced with Recaro seats/Bride

Bose sound system with subwoofers

Projected cost of upgrades over three years- $80,000 USD

De-registering of COE- 2017

Car ready for tracking-est Feb 2014

Heh. Project's gonna start once i get into poly.That is, if i ever get inside..

2009-04-08T22:23:00.002+08:00

Went to school today. Started up the ol' Nissan Cefiro.. Its three years now and counting.Still purring like a new machine. Engaged starter and put it to D and Dad took over from there and moved it out of the lot. I swear the gearshift pattern is goddamned complicated. gotta pause at R and wait for a sec as the gears sort itself out. well nvm.Engine was abit wishy washy. Well nvm again.
I'm getting a change to Haldex Sequential 6 speed manual with paddleshift mode. Well not entirely that. So yeah. Was a bit frisky so i revved it to check the exhaust and listen for any unusual noise.None. Paint's getting abit dirty.. water bubbles. Ah. im so noobish in car detailing. sighs.

Sapphire Black doesnt suit the Cefiro. so im respraying it to Midnight Black .

Got a couple of updates to the engine. Probably a new stock filter, K&N needs to oil every 40,000km. Probably MHI TD-04 turbo

Ah crap. i cant wait till im 18 then its modding time for the ceffy.

God.l want to grow old.

2009-01-29T22:59:00.003+08:00

I never said I'd lie and wait forever
If I died, we'd be together
I can't always just forget her
But she could try

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever ever...
Ever...

Get the feeling that you're never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You areNever coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

If I fall
If I fall (down)

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming homeAnd all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna...

Shit.I never thought much of this song. until i listened to this.

Its a masterpiece.And mikey died in the vid.. sighs. noooo not him. why cant it be a stuntman.?

@_@.

Feeling abit hyper frisky, later shall go 24/7 on the ps3. woot.

Lata people!~

btw i love neo huiying :X jkjk!

Her dimple's the cutest x3

2008-11-17T02:27:00.003+08:00

Cousins visited today..

First thing they demanded was "Fifa 09" on my PS3. ;X. WTH.Lol.

It didnt help that both of em were Man U/Liverpool fans respectively.

Scored a absolutely brilliant free-kick from 49 yards using C.Ronaldo. Now i know why he's rocket man. and how beautiful his goal was against Stoke.

Challanged Portsmouth for the Community shield Final in Manager mode and I won 7-3. with ten men. Wes Brown was sent off cause of a stupid foul .__________. He got yellow carded and this time wtf. i was screaming for him to stop.. but wtf he lunged at Yakubu. WTF. . AI controller must be out to sabo me.

Was 4-0 when he got carded. Portsmouth had a penalty goal due to ^$%^$$ shit from Brown. I demoted him to the reserve team and in his place was Phillip Lahm. Lol. Bought Becks and Lahm. Wanted to buy Terry but the transfer window shut before i could send my bid.

Next match was stoke and due to international Q/Fs my players were super tired.

At the first min subbed Becks, Me and Ferdinand for Owen Hargreaves, Anderson and Berbatov.

I purposely sent Van De sar to own goal for about 10 times, And then i went on a rampage. Came back from 11-0 down to win 13-11 courtesy of goals from Cisse, King Berba(8) Carlos Tevez(2), Me(2).

This is how i would look like in Fifa 09...

Most outlandish hairstyle i could find was the spike.. .________. so heck, probably next time after rebonding i would try it.

Thats all luh.

2008-11-16T00:28:00.003+08:00

Its fucking incredible

I dreamt of watching MCR performing in Singapore. Not once. But three.

three days ago

I remember that we(Me n my Insworld classmates) (in the dream)took the MRT to Raffles Place or city hall and MCR was waiting there , at a concert hall.(Not the expo or max pavillion ).

I even remember how Gee started off with Im not okay and i was like O.o. W-T-F? i was prolly quite far away, not at the front row, but HECK WHO FUCKIN CARES, ITS MCR! After they finish i woke up in a sweat. but dismissed this as a one time dream and went back to sleep.

I dreamt about MCR again on the second day of my illness..--> i was like taking a train(Again from a deserted line in a C151 (unrefurbished) But with some strangers and some friends) I couldnt really remember but i saw huimin there in a different carriage. Alighted at dunno where(a deserted station, quite modern and very shiny, but incomplete.Another Concert hall, and this time Gerard started with Ghost of you.

I distinctly remember taking a train back from the same deserted station and i woke up.

By now i was really fucking frightened. W-T-F was this? Was this a sign that MCR was coming again, each time in a different year?(ofcourse)!

I was like O.o this cant be deja vu, and drank some milk and tried to think of something else. and fell asleep. all went normal but the next day(YTD)

(If i were kidding i would prolly be fantastizing about how gerard went up to me and asked me to be thier backup singer) Hell NO.

The 3rd concert was somewhere in the middle of a wide open field. I was in a tour bus with my insworld mates(schoolmates) not classmates and We were dropped off at some deserted MRT station.We took a train but it broke down halfway for no reason and changed to the opp direction. We alighted at raffles and then mcr was there.
(Visions of the future mrt lines? O.o)

Gee started off with WTTBP. and ended with Cemetery drive. This i remember as it is still fresh in my mind since morning

All this while i was sick. my head was spinning . For three consecutive days.And it still hurts.

W-T-F does this mean?

For those who think im bullcrapping. Yes, i may not be believed, but In my mind this really happened.

2008-11-13T02:58:00.004+08:00

Its probably about 6 months since i left school.Probably more. I've been so long out of school that i've even forgotten when i've left.. Heck. I miss school, but actually it probably wont make a difference if i'd hadnt dropped out. With my maths marks. i would probably be Insworld's oldest student by the time i've died. And not to mention my school fees from-16-99 would be enough to pay for a Reventon.

Mom and dad are pissed(ofcuz) but Gaah. I love bio and writing, which i do since my dropout in the days i spent. I sound silly but my over fertile imagination is really what the Mediacock needs for thier love stories even though its fucked up. ._______.

I spend my time working on Dad's car whenever i get a chance(revving,checking the oily bits ,battery , etc) I love working on the VQ23DE,although it sounds like a washing machine at high rpms.(I wonder if Nissan contracted these exhausts to washing machine companies). At lol, sorry, low rpms it seems abit whiny
I cant deny that the VQ30DE in our previous gen Cefiro is more powerful, but it seems less refined.I'd choose power over refinement anyday.

Still remember the day cruising along Macpherson road when the Cefiro(VQ30DE) seemed to be a lil more responsive. Engine was howling,which was strange since my dad aint a heavy footer. Turned out that my dad shifted to gear 3(For Autos, its Gear 1-3 after D, which is for mountain climbing where torque is needed to climb steep slopes. And since we werent on bukit timah, or mount everest, i'd say that put quite a strain on the 30DE for about 10 minutes.

If i'd have a choice, the VQ30DE beats the modern VQ23DE,VQ20DE and the VQ35DE hands down in pickup.

Which would definately be the car when i get my driving license? Sad to say, it would be a Suzuki swift turbo. Although its powered by a 1.6 I4 (T/C) , its power to weight ratio is very acceptable. and a quite compact and economial car, compared to the 3ZZ-FE used in the Toyota Vios, which is simply a I4, naturally aspirated with a sedan body. Bad choice. Its simply underpoweredBut with the world economy in crisis, who can resist economy cars?

Im sounding like a boring old fool droning on, but heck, i miss O8.

But since there is no time machine invented yet, I'd wish Albert Einstien invented it in the 1920s,

All i can say , is that, can i join back? if i could turn the clock back.

2008-11-12T22:13:00.001+08:00

Its another burst of GEEI<3u.

Im sick and tired of me looking like some homophobic wanker that sucks on hotdogs.

Im declaring a War-On-Terror. Oops

Its War on Fats.

Gaah. Bon Voyage Fatz.

IM NOT OKAY!

2008-11-10T00:27:00.002+08:00

I love MCR.

My.

Chemical.

Romance.

5 boys from New Jersey.

Changed the world

Changed the way of life of me

Created the BLack Parade.

and they rule. ^^

2008-10-24T05:43:00.002+08:00

Havent been blogging for so long.Maybe its the um, stress?.

Im still waiting for my turn to register my death. Sigh. Can someone up there take pity on me and bring me up?? I just feel whatver i do is just irritating others. Let em have a peace of mind.

The black parade had long been declared dead. Yet i wasnt up there. Yes. Accompany um, the Patient to this final resting place .I'd love to go there soon, if not, now.

Sch is always at the least of my mind. I've had enough of life..

Now is the time to bid goodbye

2008-09-05T04:34:00.002+08:00

Today helped mum to monitor stock ratings while she slept.. wafuck.. Dow Jones down almost 344 points? and just before it was lingering at 188 pts.Nasdaq fared even worse.. 74 points down.And S&P 500?.. i wont mention how much it fell by. And whats worse that layoffs in USA are affecting the market.. jeez cmon. ppl kept selling like fuck its gonna be another wall street crash.

Whats very happy to mention that Merill Lynch and UBS are losing money. And the best is yet to come. STI (for people that have no idea what is that, yes, its Singapore, kind of a stock market. DROPPED by a whopping 80 points or 3% of its total shares . Biggest drop of the South East Asian Market!

GD number 2?

2008-08-19T00:05:00.002+08:00

Took delivery of a Ferrari F430 Scuderia today.Its sitting in the carpark now, its 4.3L 483 bhp V8 enclosed in a glass window and Tubi twin exhausts. White Racing Stripes complemented with a blood red, aka Ferrari red , Brembo 17 inch ceramic brakes Goodyear Eagle F1 GSD3 EMT tires and 0-60mph in 3.5 seconds..

And it took 3 days straight of racing at Daytona International Speedway with my Nissan GT-R 35 versus a Honda Integra to even scrougne up 300k+.T_T

Whoa whoa, before you think im bullshitting, no im not :x. This b*gger cost me 240k Cr in Grand Turismo 5 Prologue. So there you are!.Gotta aim for the 599GTB ...ugh. 344k Cr. ouch, it hurts.

2008-08-07T20:17:00.002+08:00

another day has come and gone away

on this stupid earth.

one less day to worry about

but, it seems im still far away from leaving

T_T.

2008-07-26T15:28:00.003+08:00

i just wanna die

die die die

join the black parade.

its so cruel here.

just fucking die u coward. so hard meh.. just drink and up lorry liao.

the benefit is many- u get to the black parade- to see a marching bandd that helped me out of my emo times.

die die die.

where the fuck is mother war, collect me already

Fear, regret,, the Patient. I AM the Patient. right. one that is a patient of depression

screw this world

noone likes you

remember that Patient.

i cant wait to meet Hannah Bond and ask her how's it like in the black parade
oops. Correction, i should be up there as well

and we will both reign in the Black Parade.

forever.

2008-07-23T14:40:00.001+08:00

Today is a very special day for me

July 23rd is the day My Chem day falls on..

so My Chem fans out there. blast whatever u can

in support of

The Black Parade

Haix, today wake up 7 plus see the sky green 0.0 quicky go close window chiong ah- and tripped over a chair face flat into the window grill-,- talk about unlucky

lols. nothing much now. waiting to cook lunch XD

2008-07-11T15:33:00.002+08:00

I just wanna Kill.

Kill.
Kill.

Im going mental.

im nuts

im siao

im Crazy

Im Randommmm

IM Hyperrr

dunno what happened to me.

maybe too much of ecstasy?

somehow viagra comes to mind when i always listen to this song.

You raise me up~~~

when i am on

You raise me to more that i can be..

You raise me up, so i can stand mountains.

bleahh.

Kill
Stab
Evict
Rawrrrrr

2008-07-04T01:37:00.003+08:00

Haha. okay. i confess ..

my room was hit by a hurricane.Wait wait. Wait a moment. Did i say Hurricane?

Yep it is.. Hurricane Katrina. LOL. i still remember this joke i read in a book

Why are hurricanes named after gals

cause when they come, they're wet n wild. When they leave, they take your car, house and clothes with em.

aint ah hurricane boy. alright. so one day i had a wiiiked ideaaaaa

whoop boy..

i removed the PS3 and a 26 Inch tv(this was like a 500kg ton). ugh to me at least. from the hall back to my room and hooked up to my room and assembled everything. i threw out my old pc monintor

End result? right. space is limited and i had to relocate my printer to the urm... under the bed.

ri-ghto.. clunks of wires up and snaking around the damned tv.

Piccies of the aftermath of the GREAT Disaster that struck Bishan st21..

H]

2008-06-30T01:57:00.002+08:00

I need to rant seriously

lmao i dont know what to do.

hais. sleep in bed whole day.. cant get out of freaking bed to call her.. the room looked like a fucking mess to my eyes-well probably cuz it was spinning. more spinning and it could become a blender. lols. ><.Did someone say Merry Go round?

finally got out of bed after 8 plus.. struggle to the kitchen to get panadol >.>

i dont know how i could beat the honda civic and GTR-32 in Initial D 4 two weeks ago with a stock '86. just probably the fact due that i was probably shifting up and down like crazy-do that in real life and get ready a new engine, transmission and drivetrain .Lets just say my future car, that is if i get the bloody cancer under control , will be (insert a word here screwed.) =). 4AGE rocks. twin cam 1.6l beats a 2.3 RB26DETT. lol.

TT i wanna find the sheet music for Helena.. its so cool..

TT 1 more week before school is reopened. prolly i'd never go back there this time. lol.

2008-06-28T18:46:00.001+08:00

Sighs. Pain is spreading from my kneecap bone to all over my body.Thats not all. Sigh.. im sweating like no one's buisness .Ha. the amount of water lost can fill the Pacific Ocean . LAME. rather a bath tub. or a sink.
Coupled with headaches that literally blur my vision and skin that's nearly yellow. or maybe it already is. its fucking amazing i can get out of bed.

Rightto. whats the word again. Tell me. what's the word again.. Hais. Look for the name of Track 8 of the Black Parade Album.Its there. Right. What's the name again? CANCER. right. Cancer. right. its happened. its here. its in my body. right now happily sucking my life away to send me to the black parade. Well i aint gonna let that happen not when i love a special someone.. i feel kinda calm, riiiight.. its there. . i already did a blood test and a urine test. There's just a biopsy to go, to confirm what stage, what type of cancer. hold your horses fellas, it aint here yet. I aint kidding, right. i never joke about this. Im not drunk, neither am i crazy. Im just praying hard its Stage 1-2. something early. but if its stage 3 onwards i think i better start to pray. mightily hard. cause im gonna cry. lol.

My family think its a body checkup . cause i deserve an oscar award for my acting.. make that a golden globe. In reality its so pain.. yet i cant call out to anyone. not even my special someone. TT

Riiight. what else can be waiting for me? Ok, its chemo.. its gonna be bloody expensive..

Right. before i sign off and take some bloody panadol which i hope will just neuter some of the pain i have a final request

To Gene:im not worth it..... find another guy. pls wake up.. i assure u i'll do my best to win the fight. im not gonna give up, not gonna let you go. but im not worth it. Honestly..'
tata.

2008-06-26T18:21:00.002+08:00

Oh oh oh.

its crazy..

Bob Bryar and i share some trait.. well to be honest, only one. Hahas.

we are both scared of bees . TT"

it stinged me three times. .. zz does it think im bloody nectar? -,- . FAR from it. Bee needs specs.really soon. Before it stings a pig. OH WAIT. are bees gonna be carnivorous??

three red welts on my left palm now TT"

2008-06-25T22:10:00.002+08:00

2008-06-25T21:59:00.002+08:00

Haha.. back bedbath and beyond.

find it hard to sleep nowadays.

duno its cause of the impending test...

Tmr hafta wake up early TT

exercise.. no one jio.. -_-"

hols are supposed to be relaxing. not boot camp Mister Pop zz

sighs.. nth much aka resting and slacking..

BORED TT

2008-06-24T18:25:00.003+08:00

Sighs. life is nothing. i only hold one person dear..

this song was the song i sang on my youtube channel.

sorry for my horrible voice.

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
;Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
;You raise me up... To more than I can be

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be

[chorus]

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be
.You raise me up... To more than I can be.

2008-06-24T16:42:00.002+08:00

Back again.. haha.. , rather. back home. Lols
Missing someone.. hahas

this song i really cherish it so much. it means lots to me.=x

Us Against the World

Change the world
Change the world

You and I
We've been at itfor so long
Still got the strongest fire
You and i, we still know how to talk
Know how to walk the wire

Sometimes i feel like the world's against me
The sound of your voice is that what saves me
When we're together i feel so invincible
Cause its us Against the World

You and me Against them all
If youre listening to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I wont ever see the day i wont catch you when you fall

Cause its us, against the world tonight...

There'll be days,
When we'll be on different sides
But that doesnt last too long
We find ways,
to get it back on track
Know how to turn back on

Sometimes i feel
I cant keep it together
Then you'll hold me close
And you'll make it better
When i'm with you, i feel so unbreakable
Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you'relistening to these words
know that we are standing tall
I wont ever see that day that i wont
catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight

We're not gonna break
Cause we both still believe
We know what we've got
And We've got what we need alright
We're doing something right

Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you're listening to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I wont Ever see the day that i wont catch you when you fall
Cause its us against the world tonight

Cause is...

Us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listening to these words
Know that we are standing tall
i wont ever see the day that i wont catch you when you fall.....
Us against the world
Baby's Us against the world..
Tonight

Change the World.. Change the world..

2008-06-22T18:22:00.002+08:00

A new record. Congrats. I'm the best,blithering fool ever. Congrats Mr Nix. Why did you fall asleep ? C la.. zzz pangseh my best buddy T_T.. Congrats 100%. She's not gonna speak to you ever again, hear me.. now... how i wish the bloody chemical toxin were just happen to come to sg.. then probably i'd bury up myself in my blood. haha... HAHAHAHAHA is that all you can do, laugh? My goodness ><

Sorry GENE!!! 100% ><

wo appear off cause wo off computer so tired le ><

2008-06-21T20:30:00.002+08:00

Ooh oh yeah!!

This isnt goodbye, even as i watch you leave, this isnt goodbye,
I swear i wont cry, even as tears filled my eyes i'd swear i wont cry
Any other girl i'd let you walk away..
Any other girl i'd sure i'd be okay

Tell Me What makes a Man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when youre round
And cry when you're apart
If you'd know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way i do
Girl you gonna let me know.. so i can get over you

What makes her so right
is it the sound of her laugh
That look in her eyes
She is the dream, that you seek
That force in your eyes

When you'd apologise no matter who was wrong
When you'd get on your knees, if that'd bring her home

Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And Cry when you're apart
If'd you know what makes a man
Girl you gotta let me know.. so i can get over you

Other girls will come along they always do,but whats the point
When all i ever want is you

Tell me

Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And Cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Girl you gotta let me knoww

SO i can get over... you..

Sighs.. really this song reminds me of today. ironic hahas

just wanna let her know im so deeply in love now with her, with her raven black hair, her eyes and her beautiful face. She's like what i wanna wake up to see .(Maybe i'd paste her pic on my celing).. I love her~. .but its unsure.. maybe it might not end up like what fairytales do.. Since when fairy tales end sadly =P.

2008-06-21T02:24:00.002+08:00

Well well well..

Dig that.. well im screwd: Im not a fucking okay. If i were i'd be downright mentally fucked. oh really i am soooooooooooo Mentally.. screwed

First i couldnt believe i ended my two month streak of absolving myself of self cutting... oh yeah. how it feeels to be back in buisness after 2 months of agony. ah ha.. without any meds i hated the fucking lexapro anyway, its like a fucking mind control(leave that to Yuri please) , its so like a freedom since i ditched the whole supply of them around 1 just now... and there's only one medicine i'll take. and that consists of five items Gerard, Frank, Mikey, Ray and BOBBY!<3,these>
one dose of Ray for dinner and lastly, best saved for SUPPER! GEE~~<333.>

Okay. enough about that.. WORD yeah? I may sound mentally fucked for life, but i aint, i aint fucking crazy, just a lil screwed . ..erm.. not yet though.... How id wish My Chem would be my invigilator for my O levels LMFAO. just imaaagine peeps

GEE:Art teacher
Ray:Biology
Mikey:Biology
Frankie:English
Bob:Geography.. and i dont mean the earth. the drums

Sorry guys. im really motherfucking crazy .DUH

Peace out.

2008-06-19T20:53:00.004+08:00

Today so tired.... go out so LONG..

first play cod4 until wo dint notice the time. zz SUPER LATE wah.. den sian.. wan go out buy clothes n shopping..

Jialat jialat.. train stuck in tunnel for a whole minute zz... duno why.. den wo reach vivo le

just in time to watch the happening.. WO REALLY regret forking out the money for it..

SO GORY and disgusting.. LIKE those HORROR and gore stories.. head split open.. Gunshot wound to the head.. wtf.. den lawnmower cut a guy in half.. his intestine spill out

at the end of the movie guess what i was.. YES. JELLO JELLY.

after that GO SHOPPING for a bit den go find my friend...

well not abit.. wo confess...

end up buying over 4 shirts , 3 jeans to top it up and there goes my June allowance TT"'

go back after the shopping forabit.. realised my pharking zipper mai zip up.. WALAO.paiseh summmore.. lucky wo de friend spot it.. jialat tooday not my day *frowns*

go back to J8.. lols.. dam angry sia

halfway near the finish line gonna beat liao dam nice timing..

POWER TRIP.

screeen go blank and wo was like wtf

ARCADE DOWN FOR MORE DEN 10 MINS . wtf . my card got jammed..

go macs buy dinner.. end up drop my change.. den dunno where it go..

end up wallet got flies in it.

den should nt call wallet.. should call flies home =X

camwhoring abit.. sian la..

$3o gone down the drain. well not really.. more den that. haha $200. X.x

2008-06-17T18:14:00.002+08:00

Wahs....

so long never blog liao.. super sian 1/2.. somebody's wearing me out.. x.x
Ugh.. so fast mid year liao ><

Chionged maple for 2 days.. havent sleep yet.. one more day to go and i'll be past 52.. =X
that is if i dont die first

if you think you can Read me like a book

im not a maple addict. so why do i chiong?

Good question. to prevent me from cutting myself actually.
well.. thank goodness the damn cut is healing. i still have times when i really want to go join the black parade. its much more than living here in this shitty world with all fucking dumbfucks that take my love for granted and damned sucked out all my money

this's one for you bitches _l_

I mean in the first fucking place do i keep falling in love for?

IM NOT OKAY SERIOUS. IM NOT A FUCKING OKAY

*breathes in and out* fine.

*keep calm keep calm*.. =x

I CANT FUCKING KEEP CALM WHEN IM NOT FUCKING OKAY

okay... enough

wo compose a song for my classmate.. but its also sort of my feelings..

haa..

As the dimmed lights
enveloped the sorrowful mist
that once held memories
Memories that became nothing more than dreams.

I held out my hand
As tears streamed down
As the painful cry tore into the silence
That dismissed the light of my life.

Dreams.. I held out for you
I waited in eternal silence
Never to entwine
the forlorn memoirs of our love

Dreams.. A burning desire that overwhelmed
what we used to share
With a pang of sorrow, i reached out,
into the oblivion that contained
My dream.

I held out my hand,
As the night engulfed the bright light
that filled my dream
With hope.
Dreams.. I so longed to be with you
I'd never imagine
the forlorn memories of our love
Dreams. When there was hope
When there was love
When our love was strong and free,
now stood, an empty dream..

it sucks, honestly..

IM OKAY...

IM NOT OKAY!!!!

2008-05-28T18:15:00.002+08:00

......
never blog so long liao.. so many items to update lehx *tooot* X.x

Created a band liaox.. December's Romance.. totally cool =]] going for the first jamming 5/6/08

wo kena lead plus acoustic... dunno how sehx... X.x but okay lurhs.... learn +learn+drive=sucess! :)

knn... if this year no Os .. can go full steam alr.. X.x

Songlist lai liaox..

1)Am idiot.. -Greenday
2)Welcome to the Black Parade -My Chemical Romance
3)You Raise Me Up-Westlife
4)Cancer-My Chemical Romance
5)Dance Dance-Fall Out Boy
6)Im Not Okay-My Chemical Romance..

X.x.. dunno how we gotta get it done.. 2 hr.. but cancer can slack larhs.XD

WTTBP is what im worried about.. such a bloody fast song and my vocals are not up to it.. X.x

wa lan... tomorrow got to practice.. less den a week away larhs....

Black pARADE collect me pl0x? after the gig can liaos. can super #1 get close to fwankie star of my dreams...

2008-05-02T01:56:00.003+08:00

When MCR came to SG 11/12/07 it was a damned dream come true. =).As Gee said "Are you fuckin ready? I sure am!I am gonna confess one thing. . There's only one guy for me and that's Gerard Way. Actually i was hoping for a sort of frerard between him , me and fwankie iero. =).Hot threesome =P. if you still dunno whats this shit im writing means, go look for the famous 3 letter word banned in S'pore. Uniquely S'pore. =).Codename :KND 377A/

2008-04-06T00:14:00.003+08:00

Went cemetery today.. sien norh... slept at 4 am.. wake at 6.45 am... Go there do the offerings... got bored so i flipped on my handphone and literally blasted The black parade.

My cousin damn rofl one. He tell me this

Him:Ah Nick ar.. stop playing tat song leh

me in wtf mode? Y cannot? CCB

Him:U noe what the black parade is about?

Me:Death wad... *F7 look at him... wtf are u talking bout.*

Him:Do u realise where are we now?

Me:Yeah , in the middle of a cemetery wad..

Him:There are dead ppl here..

Me:ROFL. its just only a cemetery wad... *f7 him again*

Dotz..My stupid kiddo bro very disrespectful..Knn.. go take hot candle wax put caterpilllar on it and fling them off the gravestone.

Worse is yet to come.. lmao..

He took an exploding thingy... those that when u step on it then it swell and explode..

Im like wtf? He threw the thing into the incense burner while it was burning incense.. omg

Halfway some stupid piece of cinder go into my eye.. pain like siao leh.. the smoke also hard to bear..

See lah!! All becuz of u got red eyes like lipstick.. canot go jio my friend go soccer -.-"

Went back to Dad's car and revved the V6 for a short while.. everyone shocked. LOL
knn.. stupid police had to pass by.. lucky i came out in time..

2008-04-01T16:02:00.002+08:00

Just broke up today.Haix. like that lor...hahas. will haunt me forever de.And especially on 1st April. Dots.

painful la.. but irony is that i took her for granted. I loved her too deeply.

when she told me, i thought she was joking, but i knew t aint a joke la..

Well ,The Black Parade has come to seek me, im officialy diagnosed with gout anyway, and i can leave tis world with no regrets. I love you, but sadly to say, i will be in the ranks of the beaten and the damned soon.

2008-03-30T00:37:00.002+08:00

woos. Man Utd beat Liverpool by three goals. THREE!!!. And i was laughing myself silly at the dumbest man in the world- Javier Mascherano, what a dumb guy. Dunce.Period. Running half of Old Trafford just to contest Torres's booking that was not even his priority.Loserfools.Lols.

Credits to Wes Brown ,Cristiano Ronaldo and Nani for scoring.

Wes Brown's header was spectacular.And even more was how spectactularly dumb Reina was, to come off his line, collide with Arbelola and Brown for the ball.

Ronaldo's header surprised most of thier fullbacks and defenders.Well,his agility cannot be contested.Yes.Reina again, came off his line, but Ronny got to it long ago, and the ball bulged in the neck.

Nani's was the highlight of the game.

One two with Rooney, sidestepped Carragher , blasted the ball .

Reina just stood there, like an iron post.Wow.And yes. Nice backflip celebration, Nani

Well, A Villa are due to play Man Utd in 45 mins.At Old Trafford Yet again.

Red Devils all the way.

2008-03-11T23:16:00.002+08:00

Extreme emoing

Composed a song, nothing worth while of my life

Lovelorn

Like a diamond,
Without its sparkle
Within its shattered soul.. Once beautiful, the subject of envy..

Now, encased like a broken dream
Shattered unto you
So take my hands and let us soar to our dreams and goals
Oh my beloved soul,Lovelorn as it is...longing for you.

As each day passes.....with a painful cry...
My heart in weariness.. Pines for you...
With a thousand Angels,behind me, a dawning soul of procreation awakens
With the arms of justice and a ray of hope..
My heart, will forever and ever..... Long for you.....

2008-03-11T02:19:00.004+08:00

Sian la..

Life's nth but a one big shit asshole for me

Keep listening to My Chemical Romance to keep me sane.

Trashed some of PSNetwork buddies at Need for speed Prostreet with my Lamborghini Murcielago LP640@ 1046 bhp and Nissan GT-R35 @765 bhp.

1st round, Speed challange, overtook leader on first curve with the Lambo, nearly heading straight for the lampost, if not for my handbrake and clutch kick.Nearly totalled man.Used one bottle of Nitrous of course at speeds over 365km/h, you might as well tuck in yourself in a F-22 Raptor or a F-18 Hornet

End up 1st, neck to neck with a Veyron, it kept me nearly on tenterhooks,

2nd round,Grip race w GT-R35

now this was fun, I turned off ABS, traction control and Electronic Stability control and switched back to stock tires.

Although theVR38DETT was powerful, Dang la.. Ford GT-40 took pole at the first corner.Siighs.... had to waste a full bottle of NOS to keep up.

2008-03-07T05:31:00.002+08:00

Exams.. Exams.. Exams.. Urgh..

Life has been nothing but a shithole completely.

Fuck this world, it sucks reall bad..

When can The Black Parade collect my soul?

I wanna be in the ranks of the Beaten and the Damned..

At least it is fuckin nicer den being on earth.

2008-03-01T13:49:00.002+08:00

The darkness lives.Death rules.Fret not, for the Black Parade will rescue you from the beaten and the damned.

Sounds like the perfect way to escape pain eh?

Rakion can finally play.Yeah.A year den they finally patch.

This shithole of a fucking life isnt worth it.

I could have joined the Black Parade 2 years ago.Yet i didnt want.

Bah.I'll just take it easy for a few more years and see how they turn out.

Probably i know how'll it turn out.A complete living hell.

Black Parader.

2008-02-26T22:12:00.003+08:00

Feeling so hyper..

I can seriously thank the black parade for saving my life 2 times..

Yes. Bahahaa..

Wedding nite never consumatte.. wasted nia

Joking nia..

2008-02-24T10:48:00.002+08:00

Wake up.. and wtf?

I actually dreamt of meeting Shane Filan in my dream? And back in Singapore itself?

Very vivid, can see the stage.. he shook my hand.. lols, almost fainted.

tink it was backstage..

forgot about it den wake up see the Westlife Us against the world, den remembered lols.

2008-02-23T21:09:00.002+08:00

Just Got married in maple.

It was such a nice experience.. and boy.. so mushy =>

Giant Wedding cake

if only if it was real .. YUM YUMmeh!

2008-02-19T11:32:00.002+08:00

Today so sien... wake up.. nth to do.. >.<"

Keep getting calls from my classmates asking why i nv go to sch.. >_<

v annoying..

Black Parade

2008-02-17T17:44:00.003+08:00

First thing first.. I was promoted to General on Battlefield 2 ! And unlocked the G36E, L96A1 Sniper rifle, SCAR-L. Woots!

C4ed some of my team mates with a DPV(Desert Patrol Vehicle) with 5 C4s. Yes, with over 4000 TNT kg. almost like a damned hiroshima.. lol.

sometimes i really wish i could really kill myself, join the Black Parade and get Gee, Frank, Mikey ,Bob and Ray to play at my funeral. <3>

Welcome to The Black Parade..

2008-02-15T22:39:00.000+08:00

Hop aboard..!

Welcome to a world of decimated dreams!